I was really happy when the semester closed coz it meant I can sleep well and everything, but that certain thing happened and it changed everything.
I'm the kind of girl who doesn't carry grudges but, I'm the kind of girl who believe instantly, trust instantly BUT like those instant happening I also distrust someone in a ONE BAD MOVE situation.
I usually don't believe on what people tell me. I believe on what PEOPLE SHOW me. That's why, I find it difficult to deal with a certain revelation I was told to.
At first I thought, Gosh this is shocking I might forget it later, but after that day I suffered a week contemplating if it's really true? and What I come to watch is also the TRUTH.
I was typing this not because I haven't got over it yet, but I was typing this simply because I was lead to a realization. The five cycle of pain or something like that. Well seriously I was just thinking, why waste a time for a person not worth it?
Upon knowing the story I came to realize a lot of things, I'm too fragile as a girl, I think I need to let my barriers get stronger if I wanted my life be back to normal.
Actually I also think that I should quit my course coz I don't wanna be with him on that same room everyday next sem, but upon thinking WHO ON EARTH WAS HE? The why spend a time thinking about him! There's a lot of boys in the sea, hahaha kidding aside, I mean should just focus on my studies than thinking of him.
Juseyo! DEAR WHOEVER YOU ARE! I HATE YOU! SO MUCH! AND DON'T EVER ASK ME WHY !
